IN WHICH I MUTTER AND RAMBLE ABOUT MY HD HOLIDAYS CONTRIBUTION

First of all, thank you astridfire! I was so pleased with my gift! I felt terrible about my super vague prompt, lol, I’M SORRY D: I hope you were inspired by your own muses, since my prompt was probably nearly useless in terms of inspiration. Once again, my favourite bits were the gorgeous colours, the depth of detail (why am I so fixated on the rug????) and the art deco feel of the poster, along with that classic recruitment theme WE WANT YOU! I couldn’t even get to it quickly enough to have my comment on the first page! Well done, THANK YOU. Totally awesome xoxoxox

Second of all, thank you annafugazzi for the wonderful comments you left on the fic: In Dreams for annafugazzi at hd_holidays. I was TERRIFIED (I hope that's not insulting) to write for you, and was literally ready to throw up at any given moment while waiting for the fic to be posted. I didn't mention this to anyone, but I actually worked out the time differences then set a series of recurring alarms on my iPhone calendar at the times when new posts were scheduled to be made on the comm, and then frantically checked to see whether mine was up yet. I checked in the middle of meetings...while at dinner with friends...once, I was in a cinema which had no connection, and I could hardly concentrate on the film because I was thinking about whether the fic was posted yet or not. Yes, I am a little ashamed of myself for this. Yes, I have pretty much developed a stomach ulcer and a twitch after being on high alert for weeks and weeks. I drafted an email to the mods asking for mercy PLEASE GOD JUST TELL ME WHAT DAY MINE IS SCHEDULED FOR POSTING AND PUT ME OUT OF MY MISERY SHIT SHIT SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT… but then I didn’t send it because I felt like a huge puss for being such a wimp.

Anyway. I wasn't sure whether doing this would be a good idea, as it kind of comes out sounding like a series of excuses as to why my fic wasn't better, lol. Also, I totally believe in people experiencing their own version of the same story, rather than being beseiged with 'corrections' about what the author intended by this or that. However, I ultimately decided I wanted to do it anyway. I blame my entrenched desire to confess on my Catholic upbringing. Plus, I was linked by a mate who knew which fic was mine and who had happened upon a discussion of the plot elsewhere on LJ, and I was intrigued by the discussion which some of the plot points had provoked, so I thought I might put this out there to try to answer some of those questions.

( So here we go... )

Last but not least, thank you hd_holidays Mods - you guys are awesome.